Why Choose Indifference???

One of my all time favorite sayings is "There is a fine line between love and hate and it is called indifference".  I would like to think I came up with that myself but I am sure I probably just heard it long, long ago and it has stuck with me because of the power of the statement.

 

I have always had a soft heart so I have tended to get my feelings hurt very easily. When my feelings get hurt I usually have one of two reactions.  I either cry or I get over the top pissed and behave like I am going through an exorcism which is not healthy and tends to leave lingering feelings of anger and/or bitterness.  Having a soft heart also meant I was very vulnerable to being taken advantage of which is what I believe led me to have low self esteem.  Couple the soft heart with low self-esteem and you have a person who is a virtual emotional train wreck to say the least!  Mind you I am a fairly intelligent lady so deep down I always knew I should hold myself in higher regard and that I should not always take everything little thing to heart that others may think, do or say.  But as we all know things are easy to say but much more difficult to do.  So like many others I made a New Year's Resolution to become the best me.  I decided to start from the inside out.  If the inside isn't healthy it doesn't matter what the outside looks like.

 

Everyone knows that love is a powerful emotion and so is hate.  Once you have loved someone and they have wronged you it is possible that you will put them in the hate category.  You can hate someone without ever having loved them if the circumstance was severe enough to warrant this emotion.  Everything that is in the love or hate category should only be in the category for a reason.  Indifference is the emotion that is kind of ignored and not really given much thought by most people.  That is likely because everything that falls into the indifference category is something that is not worth wasting your thoughts or emotions.  Even though someone may fall into your love or hate category, if you fall into their indifferent category then they need to be demoted by default to your indifferent category because if you aren't worth their thoughts or emotions then you should not let them be worth your thoughts or emotions. 

 

Realizing that I was constantly over-analyzing everything (some people say I am OCD) and giving power to things that were either in or should have been in my indifferent category was thanks to my 14 year old son's words of wisdom.  When we would be having a conversation about something and he could obviously see me getting either sad, bitter or angry, he would always ask me why did I care so much and what did it really matter to me.  I guess he just asked me those questions enough times that I finally had the good sense to think about that myself each time I was put in a situation where I found myself becoming emotional.  Now when I sense that my emotion train is about to derail I stop and ask myself why do I care so much and what does it really matter to me.  If the answer is that  I shouldn't care and it doesn't matter to me, I just put it in my indifference category and step away.  That is when I started to learn that indifference is a very powerful emotion. By being indifferent to things that used to bother me I have made myself available to have healthy, happy emotions instead.  I am even really liking myself again.  I no longer worry about anything that people who do not matter to me think, say or do.  Indifference has been an emotional catalyst that has gotten me past my soft heart and low self esteem.  That is why I choose indifference!

 

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